Once again, my very dear slave friend, has helped me tremendously when I was feeling very low. He did it before, it is almost how we got to know each other. It was a day after my last punishment from my Master, and I felt extremely rotten about disappointing him. He had never felt that cold and distant before, and I had so clearly let him down, a true horrible feeling. But my slave friend helped me through the night with wise advice and gave me a lot of strength. I'll never forget the support I received from him, not even knowing me.
And so yesterday, he did it again. I had texted him about the state I was in, and as soon as he could, he called me and explained what was going on. He knew what it was, even before he heard the details of what I felt like. I experienced a low, coming down from subspace. All chemical reactions sort of things in my body and stuff. It immediately made me feel better. Knowing what it was really helped to put my mood in perspective again. He made me even laugh out loud later, when we had a little chat online. Thanks my dear friend, you are very special!
Also thanks to one of my dom-friends. I received the nicest text, after he read my blog of yesterday. And he too, managed to make me laugh after a few texts. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I will do your shopping for you soon! :)
Wow, I am so blessed. Ever since I have split up from my husband, I have made the most amazing discoveries. And no, not my submissiveness was the biggest one, although of course very significant. But I learned about Friendship... a whole lot.
Last night, I spent some time in bed together with my little one, watching Pocahontas and having a little chat before she had to go to sleep. My daughter is a very sweet child and very affectionate. We cuddle an awful lot and I'll never let a chance slip to tell her I love her. And so tonight, nicely cuddled up, watching Pocahontas and John Smith fall in love, my little girl suddenly sat up. She looked at me and said:"Mummy, I think you are really lovely". I told her of course exactly how lovely she is too. She wasn't done yet, and told me how beautiful I am, especially my hair. And again in detail I described the beauty of her little person as well. She came back to lie in my arms and then told me she loves me. So I stroked her head and I was starting to feel tears in my eyes, and I explained to her that I do love her ever so much. She grabbed my arm and responded: "Good. Will you always listen to me, mummy?" Which is of course a promise for life... that and so much more... The only true love, totally unconditional.
Feeling better today, and will get busy with work and later of course at home lots of work to catch up on.
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Working and living abroad, mother to a young child and strong desires and aspirations to be a good sub and partner to my new Master. That's me in a nutshell. Welcome to my mind...
3 comments:
My dear Friend (the sexy one)!
I have finally gotten round to reading both all of your blog. First well done for getting the links in place, all you need now is a hit counter lol.
Anyway after reading through it more than one I must commend you on your efforts to get you plug in, as you well know, I know how it feels as I went through the same thing with my penis plug.
I can’t believe the blatant disregard the Dom had for you on you session Wednesday, (I hope he reads this and knows how much he needs to learn about the scene before he miss uses the Dom role again) what he did was not right as far as my thinking goes.
Now as for you saying 10 days is a long time without an orgasm, you just wait till you are ringed and chastised then you will know what real desperation is lol. (10 days)…tut tut.
Your love for Elke shows in your words and you do her proud, I have not met her yet and hope to one day but I know she has a great mother.
I wish you all the best in your endeavours to get your plug in and keeping it in for a day at work…lol.
I hope that you read my entry that I will be posting on the 14th of Feb. it is a very important day for me…
Bye for now sexy one.
How many Subs does it take to Change a light bulb?
That’s a trick question.
A sub or slave would not change a light bulb, unless ordered to. So it is in fact the Dom who changes the light bulb......
Why change the light bulb? Why not use the lack of light to experiment with some sensory deprivation?
I am enjoying reading your blog hilde and said I would write again. A Dom/sub relationship involves very strong and varied emotions, more so for someone new to the Lifestyle, so do not worry too much about feeling low. I am sure your Master will make it plainly obvious if you displease Him. That said, no one is perfect and your Master may have either acted or said something that was wrong. Hopefully He realises this and will make ammends. If not then you might need to reconsider your position with Him. you would not be the first submissive to form a relationship that was not 100% right for you or the Dom/me. Many fall foul of this through eagerness to enter service and can tend to 'make allowances' in respect of compatibility in order to 'speed things up'. Only you know if this relationship is right or not.
I wish you luck with the plug. The anus is an incredibly pliable orifice that, if time is taken, can accept incredibly large items without much training. Unless your butt plug is really HUGE, you show be expected to insert it reasonably quickly. Most important is plenty of lube, take your time and use a slightly smaller series of plugs or insertables before hand to 'condition' yourself. 'Pushing out' whilst gently pushing the plug in normally assists greatly.
Until the next time ....
A
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